Paul and Silas

I will be honest, I haven't logged on to Blogger at all in over a week. I don't know if I've forgotten about it, if I have been too busy, or I just haven't known what to say.

I find myself constantly fighting my own thoughts, not knowing how to react to feelings that I've never felt before. I don't know what is going on. I don't know where I'm going. I don't really know... anything.

I'm learning.

I feel like that's all I can say. I am constantly learning. Once I feel like I'm done learning.... I learn something new.

I would love for someone to tell me what to do with my life. I would love to know if I should stay in Ventura, move to San Diego, do missions full-time for a while. I would love for someone to just make all my decisions for me. Can't I just skip forward about a year or so? Thanks, that would be great.

BUT I don't need to know.

I am called to know God. To love, serve and glorify God. I don't need to know where I'm going, what I'm doing. God knows where I'm heading.. and He wants me to get there even more than I do. I just need to trust Him.

Paul and Silas went through a lot. They started revivals and served God with everything they had... Often they suffered greatly for this or were thrown into prison, but they never questioned what God had in store for them next. No they just worshiped God, and the ground shook and the gates opened.

Opportunities will be shown to me. Doors will open... I just have to trust in my savior.

God is so good.

Seriously.

Good.